How Do We Look Like When…

haha. I watched the American Idol Season 9 Audition. When I stumpled upon this Korean-American. John Park. He’s good looking, with a nice body and lips (that’s what Shania said).

It’s not about John Park I want to focus on, but the reaction of Shania Twain. Alright people, you might think that this is stupid, but that was what exactly a good looking Korean with great accent can do to me. I will act exactly like Shania. Or might as well I shall say that, she acted like me? Since I think I met more good-looking Korean guy than she does? Hahaha!

Look at her acting so childlishly all shy. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Enjoy the clip loves!

How does it feel…

being a soldier during the Great War?

I feel like it was right next to me.

Hell yeah I wonder.

What could it be, if those men one of them was my beloved father?

How was that appeal to receive a telegram

saying of the death of my brother?

I could not even bear thinking of the aftermath of the war; shell-shock

I was not there, I don’t even know.

I was not even born yet, neither do my grandpa.

But why does the feelings of guilt, sadness and darkness glooming on me?

As if I was there on the field

As if my father was there during the battle.

I could not even imagine how bad it could be.

As I can only listen and hear.

I could not talk or speak.

Since all I can do is to understand and feel.

I prayed for their safety, I prayed for their love.

The never ending love, of owen and Sassoon,

It was unbelievable. How two men are friends.

And why, did  only one survive till the end.

The war has ended, but the poetry lives on.

His words his thoughts are twirled around

Defining the truth of war

Defining the horrors of war and

Defining the truth of all Lies.

That lies beneath the shadow

Of unbelievable belief in country; alone.

But lives are leaving one by one,

Leaving the body stumped down on the earth

But nothing could be done.

As only one could believe

As only one could succeed

The bettle of your own fate.

go there to settle the job

job on deciding your life and death.

My World War 1 heroes;

Wilfred Owen
Isaan Rosenberg

bitter… or sweet?

Here’s the thing…

This is and the last week were a hectic week or still currently making me go wild and crazy though~

let’s just report some events…

-prepared for the charity concert

-super show two is coming to Malaysia

-all work load should be finished in this week

-haven’t been home for 2 weeks

-my laptop is in rehabilitation center

-not much sleep lately

-pray for the Haiti after quake

-2am’s comeback tomorrow

-involved in a scandal

-tired of tiring

-stomach ache and diarrhea the whole week

-8/10 for sociolinguistics

-currently in poverty

isn’t there any better words to explain my poorness in life?

How My Korean Taste Like?

This is how I spend my time at Times Square, instead of wandering around My Star Collection’s shop, I will be here, always will eat here…

HANKUK RAMYUN

Why is this happening…

I know it is a saddening effect that everyone here, who is reading my beautiful blog, is currently teary-eyed. Yes, the main reason for Hankyung’s action has not yet to be released or informed. Nevertheless, as a fan myself, and as a critical thinker, not being judgmental to any sides; Hankyung nor SME, I shall say that relevance and rational thinking should be brought up in this case.

As the case from DBSK trio, Junsu-Jaejoong-Yoochun, they have won the unbelievable battle between them and SME. But, hey, you work on the whole idea of freedom of expression and the cruelty of imbalance of agreement. Yes, you only feel it is worth right after you have 3 mandu restaurants.

Still, he has yet to confirm on the reasons regarding his wish to terminate the contract with SME that means, I still have no evidence on supporting his side for the moment. Thus, I will update this later.*edited* The main reasons are these:

1.to relieve him from the unfair contract and,

2.to suspend the contract until the decision is made for the first one

Okay, so the main ideas are the same as the three from DBSK. But I am still wondering, why is it only Hankyung? Is it because he’s the bravest of all the other 13 members? I have no idea on that.

However, I see from the perspective, of the defendant or I rather may say, Kyuhyun himself supporting the company.

He might be a maknae, of nothing much who just sings, but think again, what he had sacrificed for Super Junior. Kyuhyun was once involved in the most tragic accident back in April 2007. Remember, he was unconscious for a day. He woke up the next night and started recovering. It was unbelievable, that he surpassed death and still maintaining being alive. Yes, he did. And what the next thing we knew on September 2007, he was back with Super Junior, on stage with the second album, Don’t Don. Even if he was sick, even if he still has the scheduled hospital meetings, even if he had to sing live bearing the pain, he did it. Why? Because he felt that it is the only reason he was alive. Being with Super Junior.

Yes, so, why does this make his statement a strong one? He agreed to the fact that one should tolerate on being thankful. That is what life is about. “Even a beast does not bite the hand that feeds one”. He believed that his fame and his glory came from SME. He could have sued SME for making his life in the brink of death, but he did not. He rebelled towards SME by asking the favor from SME to let him perform on stage. He is in debt. Yes, everyone, as an employee is indeed indebted with the company. But things come to worse for Super Junior I guess. Is it not enough the fame? Is it that he had to work too hard? Right, we have no idea why Hankyung wanted this at the first place.

We just wish for the best, because at the end of the day, everyone makes their own judgment. But mine, is only mine and I believe that Super Junior has its own treasured value to be cherished. It is the time to think back at the deeds and the debts.

You can say whatever you want to say to me. But frankly speaking, sometimes it makes me mad thinking that I got involved too much in KPOP that I became a critic rather than a fan. I’m sorry for all ELFs, I’m an ELF myself. I am the Vice President of Sapphire Pearls Malaysia. So, this is a fact saying that I will always support the 13 of them. But I support with a strong basis. Without concrete reasoning, I could not help much but to argue.

p/s: I am a fan myself and I am not supporting any other side. So, shut up and read. If you hate, go with it. If you don’t then it’s fine. I don’t discuss things regarding rights of individual because that’s the job of people who can see and feel how it was like living in SME. I’m not blaming Hankyung either and the ideas went with a concrete flow. I am writing from the basis of my knowledge, and that’s how I percieve the situation. I support Hankyung, but not to the extent of him falling out of Super Junior. If he does so, then will be when I’ll find things to argue on his side. If you think that I’m not worth of a fan, I don’t think I am myself either. Because why? Because no one is really worth until that one person can make the whole problem changed. If by one fan, the termination is cancelled by Hankyung, or things get better between Super Junior, that one person is definitely the worth eing. But seeing this happening, hmm… I couldn’t see any good of being the real worth if it ends up splitting and breaking our hearts. Again, I’m not condemning, but this is the truth taht all ELFs even myself, should know and agree with. The step taken, either it is right or wrong, is never our hands to determine. But, yet, one has the power of influencing, so try, with your own bit as the fan to create the awareness between one another. That’s what I’m trying to say. If you could not understand the whole passage of my good-quality essay, so hop off. You will just waste your time reading. Feel annoyed? Yes, go ahead.

Park Jaebum is A Malaysian Hero?

Don’t get me wrong Hottests!

I was just thinking since I have been torturing myself too much with this, I should at least post it on my blogs for all readers. Well, hell yeah. What the heck with the title? What did Jay do to make him a Malaysian hero?

He plays badminton~!

But, I did not mean it literally as Jay is the player. It’s a man with the feature of Jay.

I mean, Lee Chong Wei received the world fame before Jay did.

The first time I watched the 2PM as a band…

“Why is he reminding me of someone…..? OH HELL YEA!!! It’s Lee Chong Wei!!”

I can’t help but to think of this. Like, for always. At the corner of my neighborhood, there is this huge billboard that has Chong Wei on it, and I just stared out looking at him and the first utterance was, Jaebum~

So you judge them. I won’t be bias anywhere, but I am a fan of both guys. The national hero, Datuk Lee Chong Wei, and the Chinseung Idol, Leader Jay Park.

Congratulatory Message to my fellow 2PM members.

I have been there, watching these guys performing, as 7, as 6. It doesn’t matter to me. If it’s 7, it’s perfect, when it is 6, it’s beautiful as I can see, as them too.

I know there is no reason for not being happy, since the ceremony is mainly for them, and fellow Hottests. They should mark the day, the date, the moment, when all the sweat has become tears of joy, tears of victory. I daresay they’ll go even further than DBSK, I daresay they’ll go beyond Super Junior’s popularity, I daresay they’ll break the world into pieces, only by watching them receiving the award, with tears in their eyes.

Saying this makes me think, why they are so fond of their leader. The leader, who brought them as far as they are today, the leader who leads them through all difficulties, the leader who supports, who listens and makes jokes. The leader, deserves to be realized. The leader, deserves to receive the awards. The leader, must come back!

I know, these have been pain on their asses. But, they got through it. They did it. Hottests too, they did it. Beyond anyone’s expectation, they managed to do it.

Junsu cried, commanding the happenings that happened to them the whole year, Taecyeon went up, with his tears running over his slimmed cheecks, he thanked everyone, still feels that Leader Jay was right next to him, and Junho cried as well, saying how much they misses Jay, and Chansung made it even worse, by saying the magic-threatening-heartbreaking word, ‘Saranghae’. The word, that was so easy to be said, by anyone. The word that plays a major role between relationships of twos. The word that plays a role to bloom one’s heart. But, during Chansung’s short speech, it shot through everyone’s heart, it shot like a bullet. It made everyone cried. Everyone. How much love is that, they can bear living apart. But, not anymore longer. They word is asking “to quickly love me back, quickly, come back to me.”

Nichkhun has been on his own, feeling all the great by himself. Feeling the pain and joy at the same moment. Seeing his buddy, Wooyoung, putting his head down, not wanting to put up, not until he can overcome the aching heart, the aching heart due to complications. The heart is confused, either to be filled with happiness, or to be filled with the other half. He said no word. Only bowing would do some favor. They won. They did it, but it’s not enough. The happiness missed by one inch, the one inch, leader Jay.

How can this be happening, I would rather them not to win, because now, it is even more hurtful for me to see, the departure of Jay, has made these boys pulled back in a corner, of to love and to restrain the love. They did it, but they still have sad memories behind it. It is so painful to watch, and even to think that Jay was not there. How can this be happening to me?

I cried all the way, from Again and Again, right when they started dancing. I heard Wooyoung’s voice filled with sadness, again. As if he restrained himself from crying, his voice went off by a bit. I heard it. I heard it. I saw the spot light went to the center, with the fans chanting Jay’s line. It hurts me, deeply, even after watching it again and again. I could not bear the pain, can you? It shot right in through you. The problem that can never be cured by anybody, except one, Leader Jay himself. All these diseases, all the heart aching, all the heart shot, these can only be cured by one man, the man who went, leaving us in confusion, Park Jaebum.

I hope he understands by now, how much we want him. How much we want him to be with us, and with the other 6 members. He will always be with us. And I will always see him in each and every performance. I see his gaze, I hear his voice. Just by heart. I will keep the faith. Until the day, he comes back and cures us all. He will, because, 2PM will never be 2PM, until he comes back. He will, I see the future. He will. I believe in myself, and him. He will.

Jay, we love you. Come back.

Antara 2 Benua

Keadaan skarang :

Ijah bangun pagi, Ahmad baru nak tdo.

Ijah dah nak tdo, Ahmad barula free untuk online…

Pe cite nih!!!!???!!!!

Tension tau tak!!!!

Bile si Ijah nak contact dengan Ahmad…

Kok iye pun si Ahmad rumah dh ade tenet…

Ei, bleyh sakit jiwa~

Kisah Mereka by Tijah

Hi, saya Tijah, kawan Ijah. Ramai orang kompius kami berdua, sbb ye la… name pun dekat2. Perangai pun serupe. Cuma, tggi je yg bezakan kami. Kalau orang tanye, Tijah ke Ijah? Yang tinggi ke yang pendek? Aaa… Kalau nak tau mane satu tinggi mane satu pendek, ikoti cerite ni. Korang akan tahulah.

Saya ni cite cite bukan nye ape. Hal mereka ni, patutnye, biarlah mereke sendiri yang nak cakap. Tapi, nak wat camne, nak kasik korang sume teladan. Yelah, mane2 yang ade masalah percintaan tu (ekekekeke, aku macam la ade boipren) boleh la rujuk2 kisah mereka ni. Bajet kesah ni hebat la sangat kan. Tapi, at least, ade la jugak sikit2 yang boleh di buat pengajaran tu. ha… pada sape2 yang berminat nak ade gf/bf, korang piker la bebaik same ade si Dia tu sesuai untuk korang atau pun idok…

Kisahnya, bermula 2008.

Al-kisah….

Si Ijah ni hebat korang tau tak~! Die kalau pertandingan becerita tu, wakil Tanah Melayu ni pegi ke negeri Temasek. Haa… itu bende normal la, nek basikal sampai Temasek, pastu g pertandingan bercerite die tu. Die pnah jugak pegi london, haa… zaman ni kalo pegi london tu nak msuk pertangdingan bercerite mmg kene naek kapal selam. Gune jalan air. Lagi syok~

Oh, ini dah merepek. Korang tau ape si Ahmad tu snanye blaja? ha, korang jangan memaen. Bodoh2 alang die, pandai genius tau x? haaa… ape die blaja tu, korang sendiri teke la ye. Nanti korang sure tau jugak die skolah ape kat mne ape sumer. Jgn risau. Yang si Ijah? itu pemalas tahap haram! aku xpenah jumpe orang yg nak SPM tak kalut cam die. Sesuka hati rase oren campo strawberry die je kot tak study dr awal tahun sampai tgh exam. Memang lepak nak habis. Hahaha, time SPM tu die bengang sbb xde BF. Bodo punye makhluk. Ade ke suke dekat budak Top 5! die sendiri bottom 20. Ade hati nak suke kat budak top 5 konon. PIIIIIRAH!!! (aku snanye jeles…)

tapi, Ijah kat U star kot. dapat gk aa die cekop scholar JPA. Dok bazir ng beli2 barang korea die je. Haish… tak berabih2. aku bukan nye ape, si Ijah ni, kalau x ditego, die men suke malangot buat keje die tak pk hape. Ha… laen sunggo la ngan si Ahmad tu… UNBEARABLE~!!!! Kalau si Ahmad, mesti pk memasak dulu, baru la die buat keputusan. Si Ijah, idok nye. Men ghedah hutan belantare haje! Sesuke buah pelam die jee…

Oh, sy kne gerak skang… nak gerak dulu lovies… I nak g jalan2… u dtg cr I later kay?~

Ijah, sorry la ak uncover sume story ko… ade permintaan laaa…

My Own Interpretation

Since, I want the whole world to know my point of view…
And of course, I want Jay to read this as well…
I’ll be typing this in English.

After I listened to all the songs in 2PM’s new album 1:59PM…
I realized some things…

1. I believe the fact that they are coming with only 6 and that’s why most people interpret 1:59PM instantly.

I do believe it at first too, listening to the songs and all, yes it’s not complete whitout uri Lead Ja. However, that is all well-known reason for it become a 1:59PM.

2. Fans

I know this is a bit harsh for some of the fans. I mean, since you guys were the one starting the idea 1:59PM, well in order to please these people, they just came up with it.

3. Songs

Yes, I agree on this too. That the songs are basically about moving on and heartbreak bla bla bla. But, wait a minute, is that all about the songs?

4. Members

Listening to the voices singing, I feel at ease. Why? Maybe because I think that they are all at ease too. That they at last manage to come up with an album even with people saying here and there, boycotting here and there. Well, that’s not all, even the composing of songs, I think JYP was in a tremendous mess when he created the songs. The songs are, unpredictably messy! I can’t even grab the real showcase of the songs.

JYP is trying his best, I apologize to him for all the bashing and all. And I respect you Jay, whatever you do. Yes, even if I am you, I’ll be doing the same. Hey, let’s make a deal Jay, if you come back, I’ll make another special mission. Yes Jay, we will!

I love each and every one of you, and want to add more, but time is restraining. I love y’all.